Dear Journal,

I am so confused on what I should do. I am contemplating whether or not to go home. I want to see Old Phoebe but I don’t want Mom and Dad to know I got kicked out. They should be getting the letter soon, but I don’t want to be the one to tell them I got kicked out. I miss Old Phoebe so much. I just want to talk to her.

I think I will go home one of these nights to see her and then leave right away so Mom and Dad don’t see me. I think after that I am going to leave and get my own house somewhere away from everyone. I will marry Sally and we will live by ourselves and never see anyone else. I want to get away from the world. I can’t stand it anymore. Everyone and everything seems to p*** me off lately and I can’t stand it. Everyone is nothing but a phony.

I should probably try to get some rest. I am going to see Old Phoebe and tell her I am leaving. I will write back when I get there.

Holden