Jen's Attempts

Dear Diary,

    I almost made a huge mistake. I almost took my life, because the pain of everything seemed too much to bear.

Fortunately, Dillon was there to help me realize that I am not alone. I used to think it was my responsibility alone to

take care of my sister, mom, and I. I’ve realized that sometimes others can help you find out how to solve you

problems. I don’t know how I’m going to solve my problem with T.B. or protect the new baby on the way, but I do

know that at least I’ll have some help. Tonight, I was seconds away from jumping off the bridge until Dillon saved

me. I think he was more hurt in my attempt than me. The scariest part of it all was that I really would have jumped. It

helped me realize that I still have something to live for, because I still have people who care about me. I also have

my whole life ahead of me to live. I think I blew my cover running out of the game like that. Dillon and I made up a

story for everyone to believe. I know T.B. will never believe any of it, but he can’t do anything worse to me then

what has already happened. I just hope he doesn’t realize Dillon knows. If T.B. ever found that out I would be in

twice as much trouble as I am in now. Ever since I’ve told Dillon it’s been a lot easier to talk to him, but right now I

am exhausted and am just thankful I’m still here to find a way to protect Dawn and the new baby.

     -Jen