Dear Grandpa,

            Grandpa, I miss you so much. I don’t know how I can live here without you with me. So much has happened. My heart is being torn apart. My body is no longer sacred to me. T.B. messes with me just as father did. He leaves me no opening to get help. I am being abused and if I even attempt to bring anyone into this, I fear for the life of Dawn and Mom. Once I did go to the Child Protection Service or CPS, and T.B. killed Dawn’s and my puppy.  He told me that if I ever tried to get help again, he would go after Dawn, and then Mom.  I don’t know what to do anymore.

            I met this guy, Dillon, he is the student trainer for our basketball team. He is great. He and I are becoming closer.  Last week, he asked out on a date. I was really sketchy whether I should go or not but eventually decided to go.  He took me to this beautiful restaurant, but the evening was really stiff and uncomfortable. The night turned out to be a bust. I felt so bad for him; I did reject him I just can see myself with a man considering I have been violated my whole life.  Eventually, I told Dillon my story and why I am the way I am.  I demanded that he didn’t do anything about it. I don’t want anything to happen to my family. He promised he wouldn’t.

            Grandpa I miss you, but I know you are in heaven watching over me. Help me get through this.

I love you,

J. Maddy